There will always be someone who hates you
My current mantra that I am holding onto recently is “I am living to my own expectations”. That means I stopped thinking to what people might perceive me or expect me to be. Because I live my own life, and I don’t think anyone has the right to ever direct me to be someone I am not.
Though I want to live my authenticity, there is also one thing that I’m holding to: “If we cannot be helpful for other people, at least we don’t make them suffer.” My principals sounds so individualist and selfish, but to stand on where I am right now was a long and rough road. I came to a realisation that you better focus on yourself rather than minding other people’s business. Because it has nothing to do with you. Not even help you become rich and wealthy.
But apparently this make me indifference. And that’s when people starts disliking or hating you for no reason.
For me, right now I want to focus on getting rid of negativities which universe gladly allow me to. It turned out, people just hate you for whatever you do. So, haters gonna hate right?
I heard this offensive statement from my former colleague yesterday. To be frank, she doesn’t really know me well and yet she dared to talk about me to other people. I mean, if you know nothing about me or what I am going through just shut up and keep your judgmental ass by yourself. But this person was so brave by neglecting my effort to at least be heard.
And she didn’t even know that when I wrote the viral post was because I have no one to talk to and was so desperate to find the way out to punish related party. Which by now, I got moved yes. But the related party and its intoxicating behaviour for the organisation wasn’t even taken seriously. And she was so brave telling the other parties that “I just got moved and changed nothing.”
Sis, I’ve done my part. The rest wasn’t my responsibility to begin with. If your Vice President is still the toxic human being, that’s his problem. And that’s the company problem for not taking him seriously by not giving him hard punishment. I didn’t see changes in your workplace. I didn’t see changes from the person I have mentioned in that post. But I have changed as I promised my counselor. I tried to shift my negative thoughts into a positive thoughts and couldn’t care more about what they are up to.
I am not a person who is keen of giving clarification because for what? I have stated that I am living to my own expectations. So, if someone perceive me as someone who is bad then so be it. I don’t owe them anything. I don’t even owe my life to them. As long as I didn’t bring any harm to anyone. The one who is suffering, the one who had to face the consequences of her actions was me. And nobody was there to pick me up, unless myself. So how dare you to say such things about me without knowing the truth from my own mouth?
But…
Rather than thinking about how intoxicating her words are, I now see it as a token that there will always be someone who had different thoughts with you. I understand that. If she choose to be someone who is submit into that toxic environment, so be it. And I don’t even want to help her because it’s not my problem. I got out from that environment because of my own effort, my own feet. And that’s just how she perceived me. Understandable, not everyone are on the same page as me. So be it.
I promised myself to be more positive in 2022. So I am glad that universe keeps showing me who to cut off and who to preserve. I am glad and grateful that my current working environment is so positive. Though they may also perceive me as a bad person, at least they watch me directly that I am not people said who I was. They see me as the better version of myself and accept me unconditionally. They are the people who encourage and support people towards better path. Unlike the old environment, when everyone just trying so hard to cover up bad things and safe their own life with closed eyes.
I am really glad that I am able to maintain my sanity and work sincerely. You know, if you’re just being envy at me then you might have to do what I had done. Might work for you as well?
